I had a pretty mixed Xmas & New Year! Xmas day was fun. I spent it at home with my Mum, Dad and lil brother! They all liked their presents and they got me some pretty cool bits and pieces . I relaxed all Xmas Day - Just watched TV. My bf got me some preety cool stuff too... another link for my Links London Charm Bracelet! I loved it... A jumper dress, perfume and other stuff!

Boxing Day was spent at his Mum and Dad's house with all the rest of his family! Got more pressies and had more Turkey hee hee! It was a really good day, we played games, watched a flim and went to the pub. It was all really cool. Not quite the same as previous years, but still a laugh.

I had some good news over Xmas, my bf asked me to move in with him. I am over the moon. I have waited so long for this and now it's finally happening. So much to sort out, but we have 2 months as I have to see out my contract. Fingers crossed everything goes smoothly.

New Year I was sick. I had the flu and so I didn't drink. I was sick twice which was a pain, but I still managerd to have a good night. Typical though... when  you are looking forward to a night out, the flu or something similar hits and ruins it. gutted!!!

Yesterday, I also ordered a MacBook. I can't wait to get it. Problem is, it's going to take 2 weeks roughly till I get it! Never mind though... it's worth the wait I would have thought.

So what did everyone else do for Xmas and New Year?

I really don't understand guys! It's really annoying how they make you think they like you, then just as you begin to like them, things just change!!! So I have been speaking to this guy. He's nice and all that, he knows I have a bf - always has done. Like I said before though I love my bf and no one comes close to that, I guess I liked this because it was attention and all girls like attention! Well, he's been really weird with me, he just won't speak to me properly, yet when he needs someone to talk to, I am always there and he's like "you're such a good friend" etc etc... what a load of bullshit. I'm just not interested in fucking about like that - he's either my friend or NOT!!! And right now I couldn't give a shit if he wasn't. He's just messing with my head and being a dick. I should just concentrate on my bf and my life in hand. Afterall, he doesn't even live here - he's abroad, why is he having such an affect on me? Damn it...

I haven't updated in a few days, it's all become a little manic before xmas! My bf's sister has just come back from the states with her new husband and we were out with them last night which was nice. She has changed quite a bit, but not in a bad way or anything. I guess marriage will do that to you.  Must be nice... Although she is hundreds of miles away from her family and friends - I don't know if I could do that!

Anyways... I felt a little out of place. I wish my friend Julie was there. I missed her. It's funny coz it was through my bf's sister that I met her in the first place. I have never really been that good at talking to people and I really just couldn't think of what to say, even though I haven't see her in so long. Julie is the only person I can chat to and not worry about what I say. I have always had this problem since I moved to England from Northern Ireland, because I haven't got the people that I grew up with around me. So I have to start all over again!

I haven't been able to do much on my computer side of things recently as my laptop is really playing up. I just want to get a new one and then I can get into full swing. My computer course starts in January which will be good! I am hoping to learn a lot from it and implement it in a site of my own. I have just bought the domain www.chickadvisor.co.uk Should be a good un when it's up and running!

Nothing much to report on yesterday. i spoke to my friend Julie about the situation. I think all is sorted though. Things are starting to look up with my bf and I now and I am hoping we will go strength to strength. I did speak to that other guy last night and y'know, he's sweet, but he's young. We do get on great though and I hope to have him as a good friend always.

Anyway... tonight my bf is taking me out I think. Or so he said at least. I really want some sushi, which he did mention that I could have, so I am really looking forward to it.

Well - I don't have too much to say today. I got another bottle of champagne today so that makes 3 bottles to drink over Xmas now! Something tells me it's going to be a very merry Xmas

C xx

So last night we had a couples night which was really nice. We went to the city and place called Canteloupe. I wasn't quite sure what to think of a Xmas 'couples' night, but it was really really good. Drinks flowed steadily, then the champagne came out - the fun had begun! I managed to speak to nearly everyone, I am not normally as talkactive as I was last night, but I have come to the conclusion that people must take me as I am!!! No point in saying what THEY want to hear - conversation is about both sides. I can't be myself if I am not talking naturally!

Anyway, at the end of the night we had to wait for a cab. There were some really annoying people who were also trying to flag a cab. So I stood out in a little island in the middle of the road and managed to flag one. He couldn't stop where I was so he pointed and stopped close to the annoying ones. Anyway - I raced this guy to the cab and he argued with me. I told him to ask the cabby who flagged the cab and the cabby pointed to me . Nice, so we all got in and managed to get home cheaply and safely!

Anyway, this morning was lovely with my bf. He gave me loads of cuddles and kisses and so I think it's crystal clear in my mind who is for me! I don't know what I was playing at before .

C xx